Right so, even a change of walking meditations has forced me to admit more then a few things.
1st, even the research is hard. I started and am leveraging work and school again. I haven’t had time to actually read the materials. Here I sit, its Thursday, I have homework and I haven’t really read much.
Theres alot of actual problems I had to use magic to correct and life changes.
- The neighborhood I used to live in is safe, but really its a dense urban environmentally. I just couldn’t walk around at night without full attention.
- I been having a few health issues
- work has really been killing me, and I was doing way too much magic for clients ( further really killing me).
- Time sucks
- Walking meditations are just not something I usually do.
Now for point one. I bought a house. Yep.. This was actually one of the problems and solutions. The neighborhood I lived in was not safe enough to walk around without full attention. Thats most of Cleveland really, but now I live in lakewood. Which even if I get home at 10:30 at fucking night, well its safe enough. To do it I was working my ass off, taking as many readings as possible and doing alot of magical work. I think I made like 5000-10000 extra in like 2 months from client work, side jobs and busting ass.
Second, work stresses are a real problem. That’s where the health problems are coming in. I am working back channel routes for that ( aka looking for new work). I need to move toward less stress. I have been quite aggressive about magically removing ( and yes that is what it is), stressors internal and out. Lots of NLP work, life re-hashing.
The time suck, well its just a matter of dealing with it and properly scheduling shit. So I am sitting down with a hour by hour sheet staring at it, trying to make time for shit. Plus I realize I am not really as focused as I should be…
But you know what, I have a fucking yard now, so I can do more now. As far as the client work, back to 2 readings or 1 spellwork a week and thats it for clients Then I dont burn myself out as much.
and will be dedicating a half our or more. This weekend I have to move shit, but will try to do the research for 30 minutes a day and get the shit together. Ideally the walking meditations, once I work them out will be augmented with Gigong and taichi ( looking for a sifu).