Half done! And yet not really a fraction done; challenges end, spiritual development goes on for a lifetime, perhaps for lifetimes.
I did more work today on the grief issue in my throat. I brought the mantra into it and could quickly see the way sadness gathereed at my throat and connected to the belly.
As I sank in deeper the mantric consciousness pattern pulled me into what felt like a tight ball at my throat. There was a numbness at its core, but as I went in further yet I sensed the pain which that numbness masked. A child’s pain, surely : frozen tears from unexpressed grief felt at life’s unfairness. The mantra drew me in still further and I felt an outer layer of the ball slip away. After several minutes, this happened again. My throat felt slightly clearer, but the basic pattern remained. About 43 minutes had passed.