My home is blessedly empty and I was able to do the full Hallow of Hekate tonight as I come to the penultimate day of the Challenge.
Even though I have not been able to write a lot the past week or so, a lot has been happening in my invocations and meditations. As I mentioned yesterday, one of the things that seems to be happening is that the Goddess is guiding me to places where I can recover bits and pieces of myself that have been lost over time. I don’t want to sound all New Age but I really feel that in this last little bit, I have been recovering my power in a real and meaningful way.
Not an easy thing. I am looking around myself and seeing just how much I have ‘settled’ when I could have been using all the things I have learned over the years to change my life and make it more the way I envision. Just as an example, I have been fooling with martial arts for years. Mostly, I have been doing karate since my spouse and training partner favors the Japanese arts. But, when I really look at it, that is not what I want to be doing. I have always favored the Chinese arts and particularly the Chinese internal arts. I need to find a teacher and get back into a good practice with that. A goal! Look at that!!
In addition, I have seen some things in vision that make me question . . . everything. I have been wandering through my life, living according to a set of assumptions that are not necessarily valid. I am going to be picking through that stuff for a while but the thing that I can really see happening here is something that I knew would happen when I started this Challenge: change.
I am not the same person who started this talisman 29 days ago and I think that is a very good thing. I am not so sure that those around me are going to think so, however **smile**